Meryl Streep once said, "I believed I was too ugly to be an actress."
Thank goodness that hadn't stopped her from doing what she really loved (and is pretty good at, too).
It's amazing how often we judge ourselves, or let others judge us, and then internalize all these judgments that sooner or later would become our truths. That we're somehow limited. More often than not, though, these are not true limits, but the limits we set for ourselves, probably starting from a very young age when all the people who looked up to (parents, relatives, siblings, friends, teachers, so on and so forth) started to tell us what we were and what we should be.
I can't tell you how many times I have, half-jokingly, said I would never become an astronaut. There is some "truth" in it, based on my own judgment of myself: I have vertigo, I can't even run a 2K race without puking, blah blah blah. LIMITS. I set myself some rather lofty limits based on what my own assessment (with external input) of who and what I could or couldn't be.
But the real fact is: I NEVER tried out to be an astronaut. NEVER.
So how would I know for sure?
I almost quit being a writer after I'd received more than 60 rejections.
Funny thing is we really don't know what our limits are until we really push ourselves, and most of us don't push ourselves. Sometimes not at all.
The truth is, even those limits can be pushed further away with practice and perseverance. I just did a 7-mile hike and I felt great afterwards - AT MY AGE. I didn't puke. I've sailed enough that I hardly have seasickness anymore. I used to puke after bench-pressing 100 lbs of weight. Now I can easily do 200. I felt embarrassed with my command of English and accent when I first came to the US. And now I write English-language novels and do public speaking. I have been published, and am now writing my third book. I feel so great with my body and mind that , in fact, I am starting to think: I CAN be an astronaut if I want to. Why not?
It's amazing how our mind can hinder us, stop us, butcher us if we allow it. It's even more amazing how our mind can push us through these limitations and achieve great things -- all we need is a bit more time, effort, and perseverance. But most important, STOP listening to your inner critic who, like a nasty gremlin, keeps saying, "no you can't. no you can never. no. no. no."
To it I now say, "Fuck you."
Friday, June 6, 2014
Monday, February 24, 2014
I finally went to see The Lego Movie this weekend after hearing many good things about it from friends and critics alike. I was hoping to be entertained, and by and large I was. However, I wasn't prepared for what happened near the end.
Like many children, I grew up playing with Legos as a boy. I enjoyed it, even though I wasn't a "master builder." I followed instructions very well, though, even as a young boy, and was able to build my castles and hospital buildings and airports (you got the themes.... they are all BUILDINGS and STRUCTURES -- real life stuff!) But anyway, I expected much imagination in the movie and I wasn't disappointed. At times, though, I was somewhat bothered by the blatant Hollywoodism -- the frantic action sequences, the musical numbers, the potty jokes, and the Darth Vader-sh villain and "end of the world" premise. Much of it was so cliched that it was actually comforting, if not a bit overdone. It wasn't until the third act that I realized what was happening, and suddenly I understood -- the whole conceit of the story, the characters, and the tiresome GOOD vs. EVIL plot was nothing short of genius, in the context of the real story. Suddenly the meaning of the entire story shifted, and it became extraordinarily profound for me.
What I didn't expect was how, in the third act, it punched me in the guts, and in a good way. The last act and how the story shifted spoke to me in a profound and deep way that was beyond what I expected from an animation -- an animation about Legos, no less! Yes, silliness and frantic action sequence aside, it was the last reel between a father and son that touched me to no end, and suddenly Emmit's identity and journey and awakening became something rather personal to me, as I also went on a similar journey (okay, not really that "save the world" journey). There was something even more profound and deeply personal that I won't divulge here. All I can say is that I felt like I was hit by a ton of Legos bricks on a Legos train. I am still recovering from that experience.
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
This software is insanely addictive. OMG! I'm having so much fun matching songs, mashing them, remixing them, and making something just utterly blows my mind. I don't remember having had so much fun for so long. This is crazy!
More remixes to come!!!
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
DJ RAWO has officially launched his podcasts (except it's not available on iTunes yet -- soon!)
Here's the link. Please give it a listen and follow. Thanks! XO
Currently available tracks include:
1. Skyfall (remix)
2. Dark Side vs. Without You (mashup)
3. I Grieve for Spring - Ezel (remix)\
4. Spectrum (remix)
5. Spectrum (extended remix)
6. Return to Mykonos - Liberta (remix)
7. C-USA (DJ RAWO original)
8. Try (cover, original by Pink)
More to come.
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Thanks to my friend DJ Kaze, DJ RAWO was born two weeks ago. He will soon be posting his remixes on his podomatic site. Stay tuned.
Currently in the line-up:
1. Dark Side Without You (DJ RAWO Remix)
2. Skyfall (DJ RAWO Remix)
3. Losing Myself (DJ RAWO Remix)
4. Return to Mykonos Liberta (DJ RAWO remix)
5. Beneath Your Beautiful (DJ RAWO remix)
More to come...