OK, I've officially fallen off the wagon. Since Monday I've only written a bit over 500 words on the WIP. That's not good, not good at all. So, right now, I'm about 3000 words behind my goal.
I'm not too upset about missing the word counts. I'm more upset about my lack of motivation to meet the challenge I set up merely two months ago, and I'd been doing great so far. And I could see how the problem started, too, like everything else: It was a small thing, first. Travel. Not feeling well. So I gave myself the permission to not write. Then it started to snowball into a pattern, and I gave myself every excuse I could find to not write anything. That was exactly the same way I ended up not going to the gym for over two years.
I'm going to pledge, again, today that I will continue with the challenge.
It's a fact that there are many judgmental people in the world. Perhaps I'm one of them. The thing is, we all judge others based on our own values. And the fact is unless we're walking in those people's shoes, we really don't know what is going on.
More often than not, these judgments make me very uncomfortable. "I hate this guy because... X Y and Z." I'm not a perfect person, and I make mistakes myself. So, my question is, if I did X and Y but not Z, or Z and Y but not X, am I also a bad person? Does that mean I and this person will never be friends because he or she has such a strong opinion on X Y and Z?
But then, why is it important for me to be liked by this person? Why shouldn't it be okay for her to hate me, or people like me? Is it my mission to have everyone like me? And what if they don't? Is it so bad?
The bottom line, to me, is that I've got to like ME. Everything else is rather irrelevant in that context. There will always be judgment, and people who judge us. There will always be people who don't like us for whatever reasons -- good or bad reasons, whether it's the colors of our skin, or our social statuses, or the way we lead our lives, what we do, what we believe in, what we want out of life. The question is: So what?
Focus on everything that is important to us. Focus on liking ourselves. Focus on people who like us for who we are. And hopefully, there is more than one, including ourselves.
500 words, 25600 words total
299 days and 159900 words to go